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In Depth information: Allies and differences [09 Dec 2006|12:55pm]
Your family and their allies
Higuchi --- Toronaga

Kagami --- Tashibu

(neutral party)

In this RP, there are enemies and allies. Remember that you’re still in a war torn prefecture. Peace never lasts long. There is one family however, that is completely neutral (unless attacked). Aida. This family does not side with any of the other four. They watch and see who will come out on top. With that said, remember who is ally and enemy to your faction. That doesn’t mean that you can’t talk to another character that’s part of your enemies’ family. I want everyone to have fun. Talk to any character you feel. Maybe you can persuade them to start further peace talks and the like. You don’t have to do this either. This is an AU RP, so everything is in the air. Just as long as you remember what the theme is and your character.

However, should there be discussions. You don’t have to ask the mod to have a peace talk, that also includes having a battle. That is, if you want to do that. Just simply post it in the community. And open a group chat. The outcome of whatever you are doing, is up to those in that specific chat. So it could be better, if not best, if you hold an OOC discussion as to what will happen. If there are problems, I am willing to help with clearing up any and all issues. Just remember. Play nice. There have been enough issues with people getting into unnecessary arguments and quitting.

Clarification between three jobs:

There are slight differences between a Geisha, Kabuki, and a common whore.

Geisha, although viewed in a more or less, dark light. Were revered in the era in which we are rping. Geisha were trained in the arts. They were musicians, dancers, flower arrangers, along with being the perfect hostess. Yes, some did sleep with their patrons, but that was usually an add in. Geisha were paid to entertain. And were only allowed to do specific things by the permission of their mama-sama. That means, if they wanted to sleep with someone that they were attracted to, they had to have her permission first. That was, if the patron paid enough. Remember, that although some of the dealings of the Geisha were what would be considered, prostitute like, they were respected. They did their part in the village and had their own leaders and masters to answer two.

Kabuki is extremely different. Kabuki were at one time women that performed on stage. They began Japanese opera. However, when the opera became nothing more than a whore house, the women were banned from ever performing on stage. To fix this problem, they made young boys and men perform in the place of women. This was a good idea in a sense, but did not change the illicit interactions after the opera itself. Eventually they banned young boys and let young men and elder men run the stage of kabuki. Just as the geisha, they entertained. Even if that meant that you entertained a specific samurai after the show. The only other difference between the two was the fact that they did not have to have permission. As men, it was alright to do things, as long as it was still with honor.

A common whore…well that is pretty easy. They were usually fallen geisha that were kicked out of their home. These women were without honor. And none of them seemed to care. They would sleep with any man as long as he supplied money. The Common whore was usually a street walker, an actual prostitute. They hid in the slums of the city or village, and did very little to take care of themselves. That doesn’t mean that they didn’t clean or anything, but they were willing to do anything, anywhere. Looked down upon, the common whore lives under the system. If one died, no one cared.

With this said, I will answer one thing. You do not have to have a female character to be any of these. That goes the same with having a male character. This is a free running game. So, be who you want to be.

Give a guitar string

[11 Mar 2006|11:43pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I know it's kind of late my dear, but I guess things haven't been perfect. It's odd being here and slipping away from everything at the same time. Right now, you're the only reason why I haven't just given in to this feeling I've been having. Maybe, we should get away. Maybe I should get away. But I want you to be happy. I want you to get better. I want everything to be normal. I would kill for you and you know it. I have something I want to give to you. And if I'm not home, I will leave it for you. Again, I'm glad you've passed another year...means I'll pass a year soon. I love you.


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[09 Feb 2006|12:46pm]
I will admit, I have been and probably still am being a dick. Things have pissed me off so much that I'm keeping it to myself for the most part. I guess being an asshole isn't what I do, but I don't really like the situation. Honestly, I don't even want to be signed with these people. Fuck, I don't think I'm going to play until I find that guy's body in an alley somewhere. I think all I really want is for it all to be over. Even if that means I push everyone away in the process. With Acchan though, I really am no trying to make him leave me, but I kind of don't want anything to do with the rest of the band for a while. Again, Yutaka doesn't count because no one sees his ass anyway. But Imai...I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive him much less be around him. I know it's harsh, but I can't. I can't do it. Right now I just fucking hate him. *sighs* I think I should just sleep. That's all I want to do now. That or drink. And Atsushi is right, I have been drinking entirely too much...

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[17 Jan 2006|02:57pm]
well...there may be three people in Buck-Tick right now. I fucking quit. I'm not going to be bound to that contract. I refuse. I'm not part of the band anymore for my reasons and mine alone. And until that reason is rectified...there is only one person that can even TRY to speak to me.

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[12 Jan 2006|01:58am]
I don't want to deal with this shit anymore...

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How the fuck? [19 Dec 2005|10:17pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

Private: And that means EVERYONE!Collapse )

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[10 Dec 2005|02:26pm]
[ mood | content ]

Thank god Football is over. Now work is all that is matters. School seems to be taking up time, but we still manage to find time to work things out musically. Well some of us at least. Toll seems to be taking work to a whole different level and sometimes Imai is not in the right state of mind to be doing anything. Which bothers me a lot. I don't want to ask what's wrong because he gets defensive really easily. Acchan...well things are better in that fact. When he's not working with Imai, writing something, or doing homework, he's with me. I don't know about Yutaka. Don't seem to be bothered with the fact that we don't see him much either. Actually sometimes it's a relief. It feels good not to have to worry about the drama that seemed to follow us for the first few months. There's nothing really to worry about now. Every once in a while I have to remind Atsushi to eat, but other than that...things are almost perfect. I think this winter break, we're going to be in the studio. It'll be rare for us to actually get away from there. I think Hisashi wants to get this album done. Which I completely agree with. When he's in one of his zones, there's not much you can do to talk him out of it. Although, that also means we can go home and see our families. It'll be good to see my parents again for a bit. I know my sisters have been keeping in touch, but with all that's been going on, I felt it better not to call them. Somehow one of my sisters found out about Atsushi. (Not that I could have stopped that. People and their big mouths, spreading everyone's business...and when I find the one with the mouth, I'm sewing it shut) I was actually scared to hear what my dad would say. But honestly, I'm old enough to make my own decisions now. So there is very little he can say to me that will make my choice change.

I think I found something for all of my bandmates for Christmas. Although what I did get Hisashi may scare the hell out of Toll. *laughs* But then again, ani seems to hide things completely about himself. Who knows, maybe Hisashi will have met his match. We'll see. But anyway, I have to run through this song that was handed to me and then I promised my sisters that we'd go out to dinner tonight.

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[04 Dec 2005|09:18pm]
Wow...um...he just keeps going after older people doesn't he? But at least it's not Atsushi. God Imai talks a lot when he's drunk. And since it's really not worth the aggravation. And I hate the guy, I won't really say anything about it. The bastard will get his soon. Although, telling Hisashi not to say anything isn't going to work...he'll get drunk or worse and tell someone else. *laughs* This is going to be funny to watch.

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What the hell is going on? [26 Nov 2005|09:41pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Okay...is Masa going on a trip or something? He had all his stuff packed as was leaving. Yutaka wasn't around to ask him. It kind of bothers me in a bit. But I didn't say anything as a watched him leave. I hope this isn't what I feel it is. I want to find Yutaka. Hell, call Imai...Toll someone. Because this isn't looking good. I'm trying hard not to break into Yutaka's dorm to see if I'm right. What would Toll say...what would Toll do? Let it go...*sighs* Let it go and let Yutaka deal with it until he needs us. Right. Let him figure this out on his own. But still...hopefully I'm wrong...

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Bored out of my mind [25 Nov 2005|12:39pm]
[ mood | bored ]

It's funny...I have class, rehearsal, room with my little angel, and I'm still bored. I haven't seen Acchan yet, so that could also be a problem. I was thinking about calling Imai up and going drinking, but he's got projects up the ass. Maybe I could go see Masa see if he wants to go drinking with me. I keep thinking about a few things. Like how Atsushi is handling. I haven't really spoken to him about what happened since we all had that talk. I'm just a bit worried that he's hiding things from me. But maybe it's best that I just wait it out and see if he talks to me. I don't want to force his hand on it. But anyway, I need to find something to do before I go nuts in this room.

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[11 Nov 2005|10:40pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

What can I say? I'm happy that Atsushi and I are back together. But I don't feel good about what he had to lose in order to do so. It was a mistake. But I keep thinking will he actually be okay without the other one being his friend. I know as well as he does, that he has feelings for him. It sucks knowing that, but again, he says that I'm the only one important. I will be honest. I don't like the creep. Honestly, I practically hate him. And I'm not fucking stupid, I know he's still around. The coach came up to me while I was studying before practice and told me that he had quit therefore I'm captain again. So back to the world of being the captain for the football (soccer) team. That also means that I have to be at practice earlier than everyone else. And with all that's going on, I'm not sure if I can do that much longer. I've been thinking about going to see the psychatrist one of these days and talk to him. Maybe it'll help more if I can get some of the stress off. I mean other than drinking and working out I need to let go of my hostile frustration with a few people. I do need to express what I'm thinking to Atsushi more often, since I know that is part of my problem. But Jay...I should have kicked his ass. I know that it's past but I shouldn't have held back and gritted my teeth so much. Maybe this wouldn't be so annoying. Everything he's done is pratically eating at me. *sighs* I'm going to lay down and wait for Atsushi to come home. I hope that's soon. Since I started dating him, I've noticed I don't sleep well when he's not near me.

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I should have known [09 Nov 2005|09:04am]
[ mood | depressed ]

I know, I'm stupid. I'm a fucking idiot. I thought maybe this time things would and could be different. You would think that I’ve gone through things like this long enough not to deal with it now. I gave him the benefit of the doubt. Fuck I even ignored Yutaka when hew as going on about where he was and so on. But he was right. Everyone was right. No wonder everything seemed off. I thought that he told me everything. That he wouldn’t do anything. And the first thing he tells me, is that he couldn’t stop himself. What kind of shit is that? I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep saying it’s okay and know that I’m trying everything in my power not to cry, not to be hurt. I took Imai’s advice and just stopped thinking about what Jay was doing. That all that mattered was the fact that I love Atsushi. How naïve could I have been? I love Atsushi, but he obviously has feelings for Jay. I’m not in the way anymore, he can be with him all he wants.

I’m thinking about dropping out. We share too many of the same classes and I can’t be in the same room with him. I feel like hell. Haven’t slept since I left there. I’m at Toll’s for right now at least. When I finish the papers to sign out of school, I’ll go back to Gunma for a while. I know I can’t go far. I still want to see if this band goes anywhere. But I can’t be here. I don’t want to remember this. I don’t want to feel anymore.

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[27 Oct 2005|02:24pm]
...I'm so pissed off I can't even focus....There's something I need to take care of. Tie up loose ends. Imai, cover for me will you. I may not be back for a few days (If things turn out wrong). But I'm tired of this, and I'm going to fix this issue once and for all.

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[22 Oct 2005|06:45pm]
[ mood | busy ]

What do I say? I've been a dick. And for good reason I guess. Then again, is being jealous a good reason? Imai is right. There's no reason for me to worry over this. I told Atsushi how I felt and that's all that should matter. You know when Hisashi isn't being an overprotective, overbearing, asshole, he actually makes sense. But that was only one time and I understand why he did it. I think he was wondering why I didn't do something about him earlier. But I didn't know that the kid was going to do that. And the rock was too fucking far. He really is lucky that Yutaka showed up when he did. But a warning to Yutaka as well. I love him to death. He's my best friend, but the next time he touches me when I'm pissed off....I'll hurt him. He was at the wrong place, and I was at the wrong frame of mind. Honestly the only reason why I didn't hurt him is because I knew how Atsushi felt. I don't want to hurt him. And I hate to see him hurt, much less over something that I did. I'm trying though. And I promised that I would take care of this. Technically this is between me and Jay. And that's how it should be. Atsushi shouldn't be in the middle of it and neither should the rest of my friends. I need to step up here and tell him how it's going to be, and if he can't agree with that I'll have to constantly remind him that Atsushi is only going to be his friend. I'm not good at having a relationship like this, but for Atsushi, I'm willing to try anything.

But on that note, I'm actually fine with having Jay around. I just don't want any problems. Oh right...Imai's birthday was yesterday...bet anything he got drunk off his ass and then hit on some unsuspecting girl (that better not have been my sister), ultimately taking them up to his 'lair', and having at it. He's probably got a hangover of a lifetime right now, which means he's going to be pissy as fuck when we go to rehearsal tonight. *sighs* It's the way things go with us, so...I guess I can live with it.

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[07 Sep 2005|12:55pm]
[ mood | bored ]

*sighs* Well, lost our opening game. Practicing every day and someone messes up. Actually I can't blame anyone. I'm the captain after all. But still, we shouldn't have lost that game. It's odd being in the dorms now given Atsushi and I are in here at two different times it seems. When I'm here, he's gone. When he's here, I'm gone. What's more odd is I don't really see him in class either. Maybe I'll corner him later. Have to admit I miss talking to him. Two different sides of a story when we talk, but it's always nice to get a fresh outlook on something that's going on. It makes me wonder how the others are doing. Haven't seen them either. I guess things do change after high school. There's still a guitar in here, I think I'll play it for a while before I start working on an assignment.

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[02 Sep 2005|10:13am]
Handle: Chikuma
Characters Name: Hoshino Hidehiko
Band Name: Buck-Tick
Yahoo SN: dragonangeltear
AIM SN: kiminoakuma
Character Journal: mayonakauta
Dorm Building: Okashi Hall
floor: 4
Dorm room: 412
Roommate: Sakurai Atsushi
classes: History, Science, Literature, Math, Culinary Arts, Design (clothing), Sports: Football (soccer)
Comments: ^^ hello??

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